Person of the Month: January

This thing was inspired by Bianca Gonzales' Person of the Year and Ate Daye gave me the idea to do the same thing.

It is hard for me to choose my Person of the Month because this is the first person to have special slot in my blog. So this person should be as special as the author. Hehe! So my choice for the Person for the Month of January is none other than my little Angel. Angel is with us since December of 2007. She added smile and joy to our family, especially to me as her mommy. Last January 11, she was christened and we were all happy for her. She enjoyed her day eating her favorite spaghetti and opening gifts from her godparents. She's my darling little Angel.
Here are my other reasons for choosing her.
-100 steps before I reach home, she will shout with excitement "Moommmyyy!" then will run to me and she will hug me so tight, kiss my hands and my lips afterwards, she will ask for pasalubong.
-Upon reaching home, she will look for my slippers and give it to me, and then will put my shoes in the rack.
-She is also sweet with our pets. She is not afraid to be gnawed. She will still caress them and kiss them.
-She sometimes acts and speaks like a mature person and it’s funny. Ex: (She will say, “Kuya Dong, wag na tayo away para lagi tayo masaya.” Sometimes she will be posing akimbo when a person she is talking to is not paying attention.)
-She will always tell me not to wrinkle my forehead. She will say, “Mommy, smile ka para walang guhit.”
-She embraces like she will never let you go.
-She kisses with sounds.
-She is very inquisitive. She will ask questions over and over again. When you get irritated, she will laugh at you.
-She doesn’t want your face covered with hair.
-She’s obedient. She always follows everything my mom and I say but not other people.
-She will tell you what happened to your favorite telenovela when you missed it.
-She entertains my visitors when nobody is around.
-She wants to be taken a picture and poses like a model.
-She will greet you ‘Good morning’ right after she opens her eyes after a sleep.
-She never forgets to say I love you Mommy every time I hug her and before she sleeps.

I have so many things to tell about my little Angel but blogosphere is not enough to express how much I love her.

70 Days Before My Second Debut: Movie Bonding

I went to a movie house with my little Angel. It was her first time in a movie house, and in Walter Mart-Plaridel. Immediately upon arriving, she saw Jollibee and said, “Mommy, Jollibee told me to buy spaghetti, ice cream and burger.” I laugh at her and said, “Really? Jollibee said that?” Anyway, I still bought her burger and ice cream.

We watched Beverly Hills Chihuahua. It was a feel good movie because it’s about dogs, and I love dogs. Angel loves it too but I think, she was afraid of the place because she was holding my arms throughout the movie. Especially when Harry Potter preview was shown, she covered her face by hugging my arms.

I enjoyed our first movie bonding together. Angel fell asleep on our way home.

71 Days Before My Second Debut: Premarital Sex

I was shocked when my mother told me that two of my cousins are getting married, only because their respective girlfriends are pregnant. It upset me because my cousins are not yet prepared for married life and fatherhood, emotionally, physically, psychologically, spiritually, and of course financially. They don’t have stable job. They didn’t even finish their studies. They are very young. It breaks my heart that my cousins will be embracing a life that I know they can handle but they will have to encounter so many difficulties because they are not prepared. And it happened just because of premarital sex.

What is premarital sex? The Bible refers to premarital sex as fornication, a very uncommon word which means sexual intercourse involving two people who are not married to each other.

Is it moral? But who will decide if it’s moral? For me, it depends on the norms of the people. But if you will look into the Bible, premarital sex is just as much of a sin as all other forms of sexual immorality. God made sex not just for the enjoyment of the married couple to get the pleasure of sexual relations but also for re-creation of new generations. Only if people are guided about this thing called sex, there will be no unwanted pregnancy, sexually transmitted diseases, unwed mothers and abortion.

Nose bleed. I’m in deep thought. I have to stop this. Hehe!

72 Days Before My Second Debut: Deal or No Deal

Yesterday, I received a txt message from the staff of Kapamilya TV Show Deal Or No Deal. I was given a chance from the list of texters through the ABS-CBN Interactive to play for Deal Or No Deal. I was very happy and excited and nervous. I told the news to my family and friends. They, too, were excited. They even asked to join me as my guests when I play. Some suggested a number to choose. Some also asked for ‘balato’ or share. But then, I have to pass the selection process first before I can play.

Again, I did not come to office. I left the house early to avoid the morning rush and not to be late for the screening. But there’s no traffic at all, thanks to NLEX. I was very early. But to my surprise, 100 people were earlier to come and were already in line. So I queue with them and get to meet few people, Kuya Robert and Peach. Kuya Robert is from Parañaque and Peach is from Cavite. I saw different people: those who dressed up not only for Deal or No Deal screening but also for the chance to be discovered to become an artist; those who didn’t bother to be presentable to make people sympathize with them; those you would really think came from afar because they look exhausted; and those hopefuls to be given a chance to play Deal or No Deal.

We were given the exams at the studio where they tape Deal or No Deal. It’s smaller than what we think, because it looks bigger in television. We were entertained by a staff (He’s also the one who texted us. I forgot the name). Dr. Randy Dellosa administered the examination. It was a psychological exam in dictation. Well, I did not pass.

I wanted to go to the office after that because I still have time to catch ‘half day’ but headache suddenly attacked so I immediately went home.

It was a great experience. It made me dream of the things I want to achieve using money. Hehe! And I know, for sure, 179 people with me on the first batch of screening were also wishing for a chance to play this game of luck. You can’t blame us. With the economic crisis affecting every single person around the world, who doesn’t want to have money in an instant? If luck permits, who wouldn’t grab that kind of opportunity?

So I say, Deal to luck (I would like to add prayers and faith) and No Deal to financial crisis.

73 Days Before My Second Debut: Absence

It's the big day for my cousin Virgie. She will work in Hong Kong starting tomorrow. My mother and cousin accompanied her to the airport. This is her first time to go out of the country. She will be assisted by my aunts in Hong Kong.

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I wasn’t able to go to the office. Effects of dysmenorrhea attacked my head (hangover and migraine).

I was surprised because people from ASAP txted me and uttered their concern about my condition. For me, it was too much, OA.

74 Days Before My Second Debut: Monthly Sickness

Dilemma. Today is the first day of my monthly period. I am having dysmenorrhea (syndrome of painful menstruation characterized by severe uterus pain). Although I survived my whole day at the office, my way going home was terrible. I was sitting beside Ate Dolly, and I was crying. I don’t take med as long as I can take the pain. But when Ate Dolly saw me crying, she asked for med from her niece. She let me sleep until we arrived in Malolos. Motherly touch therapy can really lessen the pain. Thanks Ate Dolly.

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I was watching primetime tv program in Kapamilya channel (of course) when my little Angel caressed my tummy. She said, “Mommy, can you have a boyfriend now?”

I was shocked by her question. Then I laugh at her and asked, “And why should I have a boyfriend?”

Angel answered, “So you can have a baby.”

I asked her again, “Why do you want me to have a baby?”

Angel smiled, “Because I want to have a sibling.”

75 Days Before My Second Debut: Badtrip on Chinese New Year

Kung Hei Fat Choi!

It’s Chinese New Year and everyone is craving for mooncake and tikoy.

Everybody is also waiting for the Annular Eclipse to take place in the afternoon. Annular eclipse occurs when the sun and moon are exactly in line, but the apparent size of the moon is smaller than that of the sun. Hence, the Sun appears as a very bright ring, or annulus, surrounding the outline of the moon.

I don’t know if this phenomenon has to do with what happened to me that night. I was having a good time chatting with some friends. But when somebody important to my life arrived, I was irritated. I know, I don’t have the right to complain, but I just don’t like some of his ways. It annoys me.

76 Days Before My Second Debut: Sheika's Christening

My college friend, Jemai, welcomed her daughter Sheika into the Christian world. I was with Amiel, one of the godfathers. It's good to see babies set to embraced Christianity because I'm slowly appreciating my belief, and I know, those babies are going to the right path.

I also gaze at, together with my cousin Virgie, the Sto. Niño parade. I think, over a hundred Niños took part in the parade. I spotted familiar people. I saw Mommy Llane, with her whole family, and Niño in stroller. I was with them last year, when Drew was still 6months old. But now, he's year and a half, and I can't carry him anymore. He's heavy.

Good to be close to God while getting matured (this one’s better than getting old).

77 Days Before My Second Debut: Inuman To The Max!

Birthday greetings to my friends, Rachel Bersamera, Romeo Alinea, and Wilfredo Alberto.

That afternoon, I had a meeting with the KALIPI members.

I also attended Wow's birthday celebration. Of course, when I am with Wow or James, it's all about 'inuman', well sometimes, it's about theatre (Wow) or love story (James).

To date, this was the most lasing (drunk) moment of our barkadahan. Though I and Wow were not intoxicated, James was down at the street, almost sleeping, and blowing horribly. We brought him home, but we just left him outside of their house because he doesn’t want to go upstairs.

Before Wow and Rowie took me home, we consumed 2 bowls of ‘lugaw’ (rice porridge).

78 Days Before My Second Debut: Relaxed

Since, we just finished our responsibility for the Committee, we took a short break before preparing for the next meeting.

I went to Robinsons to buy gifts for the Christening of Sheika, daughter of my college classmate, and for other January birthday celebrants.

I also had time to surf the net. I change the template of my blog. Though I'm still not contented with the result.

Later that night, together with my cousins, we watched the Amateur Singing Contest in our barangay, in connection with the celebration of our barangay fiesta.

79 Days Before My Second Debut: Finally Over

January 22

Finally, the day has come. The Committee meeting went well. My hardships paid off.

Now, I can rest for a while. Our next meeting is set on the 26th of February.

80 Days Before My Second Debut: Tired and Will Be Patient

January 21

I am very tired. I finished the things needed for the CLEBM meeting before I went home. But it is my fault. I always rush things. Results: OT and body aches.

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Really hard to trust people. Even your love ones can betray you. Although the mistake committed is not that big, it harmed again my very weak emotion. I almost cried, but I have to pretend that I’m strong, so he would think that I don’t need his big help. But I know where the news came from. For the second time, it happened with the same people involved. Although, I keep my promises, still the matter is not good.

You didn’t get what I’m saying? Just let it be. I want to keep it to myself, because I don’t want our friendship be harmed. I will be patient.

81 Days Before My Second Debut: BSU Fashion Show

January 20

Group of Fine Arts students of Bulacan State University again showed their talents in making dresses/clothing.

I attended the BSU Fashion Show and Model Search for two reasons: First, four members of ASAP joined the contest. Though they are beautiful and are model-like, they did not get the title crown. But I enjoyed it because I saw my former student 6 years ago. From a very simple girl (she was 13 years old then), she has grown to be a beautiful lady, with a real model stance. Second, I am supporting my friend who is ‘in love’ (?) with another friend of mine who is part of the Model Search.

I am now a certified supporter!

82 Days Before My Second Debut: Asteegs!

January 19

I hate it! My Monday didn't go well. I go to office very early just to meet these people that irritate me and piqued my week start.

I just want to close my ears from their stories.

83 Days Before My Second Debut: Activities

January 18

First, time to have our supplies for the month. So shocked that although we limit our spending but still I paid so much for it. Now I do not know how to budget my salary with crisis attacking my wallet.

Second, movie time. I watched the movie 300, with moments not looking at the laptop monitor because the fight scenes were violent, terrible and inhumane that my heart can't accept it.

Third, Sunday is for Dear God. I needed it.

Finally, work. I'm still not done with the transcript. Huhu..

84 Days Before My Second Debut: Overtime

January 17

The Committee on Legal Education and Bar Matters will be having its next meeting on January 20. I am one of the members of the Secretariat. I haven't finished the transcript yet so i brought it home.

In between work, i watched the movie Twilight on my brother's laptop. it is a good movie. I can really see that it was written by a girl because I can relate my self while the lead girl is telling her love story.

Lovely and Jen also visited me, I guess to report.. Haha!

85 Days Before My Second Debut: Dr.Love

January 16

My high school friend txtd me. He is broken hearted. His ex girlfriend dumped him and doesn't even want to talk to him. She doesn't even want to let him know her new accounts in friendster or in facebook. So this good friend of mine was very sad. He misses her.

But Dr. Love in me is not an adviser but a listener. I just comforted him.

And after our conversation, he told me a secret. He wants to court one of our friends. Hehe! See. I can be the next Dr. Love.

86 Days Before My Second Debut: So-so

January 15

It's a so-so day. Nothing important happened except that I was still able to wake up, breathe, and go to work.

87 Days Before My Second Debut: New Friend

January 14

The very concerned husband of Ate Irish, Kuya Raul, gave me a txtmate in the person of Tan. Although I am not interested having txtmates, my ever supportive dyosas insisted. Hmm, let's see..

88 Days Before My Second Debut: Sleeping Beauty

January 13

Happy Birthday Lola Felisa!

First time, in 13 days of 2009, i had the longest sleep: 6 hours. Thank God!

89 Days Before My Second Debut: 'd Day(e)

January 12

Early Monday, luck is with me. I was able to catch up our service bus despite the fact that I was late by 7 minutes. Thank God!

Ate Daye did not come to office. Why? Birthday leave. We met at the Department Store of SM Sta. Mesa. She was getting a gift for herself, and I was buying a gift for her too. Hehe!

She celebrated her "Fertility Year" in Music21. Her guests include only those closest to her heart. People were in videoke and drinking mode.

To sum it up, I think Ate Daye enjoyed her day. She was in tears because of joy. I just wish her luck in her new found career, good health and a 'happy ever after'.

90 Days Before My Second Debut: Mommy Now!

January 11

Welcome to the Christian World!

It was the baptismal day of my little Angel. She was baptized in Barasoain Church. We invited few of my friends; some of them are Angel's godparents.

Angel is very excited. She woke up very early and wanted to take a bath at 8am even though the ceremony is 11:30am. I bought two cakes. My mom, assisted by Tita Bhing and cousins, prepared a sumptuous meal.

The ceremony started at 11:30 AM. There are many kids waiting to be baptized. Some are crying but some are laughing. It is good to know that these kids are now going to be under God's loving embrace.

We would like to thank Angel's godparents: Ninongs Mark, Gil, James, Wow, and Efren(wasn't able to come because he is in KSA) and Ninangs Bhing, Irish, Clarissa, Tess, Dolly, Daisy, Princess, Lovely, Eva, Nikko. They accepted the responsibility of being the second parents of Angel.

For pictures of Angel's christening, please check my multiply account.

91 Days Before My Second Debut: Sloth Day, ASAP and Tired

January 10

I had my sleep at 2 in the morning because we celebrated Bandam’s birthday. I need to wake up early because of my super hectic schedule for the day. I have to attend my college friend’s wedding and a speaking engagement.

But Saturday is my sloth day. I woke up at 7. Left my brother's house and went to Ate Daye's house to prepare. But it's really a sloth day for everybody, Ate Daye told me to stay for a few minutes more. Until I wasn't able to attend my friend's wedding anymore. I left Manila before 12noon.

Upon arriving in Bulacan, I prepared my presentation for the ASAP Team Building. ASAP is one of the student political parties in Bulacan State University. ASAP is my child. I gave birth to it and guided it for almost 6 years now. But I had a misunderstanding with them, so I left them. Lovely, my ever reliable friend took over. I had fun with my role as a speaker. This is the second time I stand before them as a resource speaker. And I think I really enjoyed it because I lasted for 3 hours. Gosh!

On my way home, I then felt that I'm tired. My legs hurt. I have cough and colds. It hampered my speech. And I was hungry and sleepy. After almost 2 hours of travel, I had the chance to eat my delicious lunch/dinner prepared by my mother. After that tasty meal, I didn't notice that I already fell into sleep.

92 Days Before My Second Debut: Kilos!PUP and Birthdays

January 9

I attended Kilos! PUP-Finance Committee Meeting. The PUP Student Council Election is nearing and they have to solicit funds for it. They asked for the help of the alumni members. The group is so energetic, they have so many ideas, and very positive.

I also asked Franz to layout a tarpaulin for Angel's Christening and Franz never failed to make a very good creation.

Aside from the fact that today is Black Nazarene's Day, it is also Bandam's and Poi's birthday. Happiness and good health for both of you! Cheers!

--I want to share this line from Our Daily Bread, "2 Corinthians 1:4 [God] comforts us... that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble."

emotional breakdown

The start of 2009 wasn't good for me. I am hot-headed, emotional and impatient.

Last January 2, I had a sudden breakdown / realization, etc. about life. My plans for 2009 are still on hold. I don't know what 2009 will bring me. I was afraid and I didn't know how to handle things that will come my way. That was the second time i felt that kind of heaviness in my heart, the second time I felt that God doesn't love me.

And just before this post, i was crying because of my family. i am very weak when it comes to them.

Evil is trying to enter into my life. I am very weak (sick and tired). I want to scream, but i can't hear my voice. I want to laugh but why tears are falling from my eyes.

Hayy.. Let me go!

93 Days Before My Second Debut: Family Affair

January 8

I was surprised when my brother called me and asked me about the problem in our family. I was shocked because I don't know the problem. So he asked me to know the problem. I called my mom and she told me that there is tension between our boarder and my cousin. Again, I felt the heaviness in my heart. I really feel bad whenever I have a dilemma and it concerns my family. I told the story to my brother while I’m crying.

I am so weak, and hate it.

--Our greatest strength is often shown in our ability to stand still and trust God.

94 Days Before My Second Debut: Reconciliation and Dayo

January 7

Good news! My cousin texted me and told me that he already talked to his brother with whom he had a fight last year. He said that it’s a brand new year and they should reconcile for their family’s sake. He also told me that he was influenced by the people around him, people who are God-fearing and kind-hearted. Two thumbs up!

I got to watch Dayo, a digital animated film about the adventure of a young-boy with his manananggal friend. I love this movie because aside from the fact that it’s a feel good movie and it has lessons for young people, I was with my girlfriends when I watched it.

new year charm

Somebody confessed that he's in love with me last January 2.
(i will not comment, he's one of my frequent readers)

Last year, i had a boyfriend on new year's day.

(which lasted for 19 days only)

Last 2002, i broke up with my boyfriend on new year's eve.

(after 7months and 2 weeks of relationship)

confusing.. what's with the new year?!

95 Days Before My Second Debut: No Focus

January 6

Second day at work and I still can’t find my focus.

96 Days Before My Second Debut: Back To Work

January 5

Back to work.

Well, at least I have a job. The salary makes me worthy because I get to pay the house rental, bills, etc.

My cousin saved money on transportation expenses on her way to her training center and agency because she rode our service bus.

At last, I was able to give my Christmas gifts to my officemates. I was too busy before Christmas that I failed to buy and wrap gifts for people close to my heart.

97 Days Before My Second Debut: KALIPI Will Change The World

January 4

KALIPI members went to our house to wrap gifts for street children.
Later in the afternoon, they went to Malolos plaza and distributed the gifts to less fortunate.

See what you can do to change the world.

98 Days Before My Second Debut: Gift Of An Angel

January 3

I had the longest sleep since the holidays started.

I'm not stable (baliw ba?!). I mean, I’m still thinking of the dilemma I have since the New Year started. But luckily, my little angel made me laugh. Thanks for the gift of an angel.

99 Days Before My Second Debut: Not Perfect But Loved

January 2

I broke somebody’s heart.

I had a fight with one of my trusted friends.

I had an argument with the person I love the most.

But I am very lucky, because they still love me despite of my mood swings. I am often misunderstood, but they always see the good side of me.

They see me with uncombed hair, dirty clothes, dark eye bags, etc, but it didn’t matter to them.

And one thing more, I have the very first active members of KALIPI-BSU who have such great ideas that can change the world.

100 Days Before My Second Debut: Blessed Nysa

January 1

I’ve been very blessed because it is very rare that our family celebrates New Year with all the members present.

I am fortunate that I have a good job that gives me a good pay to provide blessings for our New Year celebration.

I am happy I have friends who don’t forget me and join me on my trying times. They see me on my wildest. They understand when I’m afraid.

These are my strengths.

countdown to my second debut

I just realized that the start of this year is 100 days before my 25th birthday. So I thought of writing some things that will make my days from January 1 to April 10 invaluable and laudable.

As what I’ve said, the start of 2009 wasn’t good for me. I encountered heart-breaking problems that made me weak. But I will try to figure out the good side of my story (right ate daye?!).

I hope, you will all be part of the brighter side of my life. And don’t leave on my darker days.

Thanks!