you can't push it..

It's a great feeling when you're in love.
Just a glimpse of him, your day is complete..
Just a thought of him, life is not dim..
With just a smile, and you’re ready to die..

But you can’t really push someone to feel the same..
You can change his mind, maybe, but not his heart..

This is my realization after I had a chat with my friend, James. He thought I called him because I wanted him to come with me to watch Jonas. He said, he saw Jonas and told him to forget being gay and be a real man, for me… But Jonas said, “Ayoko nga!” He doesn’t want to be a real man… or what strike me is that he doesn’t want to be a man for me..

You know, I can make him change, make him a real man, make him forget his past. But after that, if ever I will be successful making him a true man, will he love me the way I do, or even a quarter of what I feel for him. Maybe he doesn’t like me.. Maybe he will never like me..

So might as well stop this foolishness (like what other people say..), and find a real man who will love me the way I love him or even more.