98 Days Before My Second Debut: Gift Of An Angel

January 3

I had the longest sleep since the holidays started.

I'm not stable (baliw ba?!). I mean, I’m still thinking of the dilemma I have since the New Year started. But luckily, my little angel made me laugh. Thanks for the gift of an angel.

99 Days Before My Second Debut: Not Perfect But Loved

January 2

I broke somebody’s heart.

I had a fight with one of my trusted friends.

I had an argument with the person I love the most.

But I am very lucky, because they still love me despite of my mood swings. I am often misunderstood, but they always see the good side of me.

They see me with uncombed hair, dirty clothes, dark eye bags, etc, but it didn’t matter to them.

And one thing more, I have the very first active members of KALIPI-BSU who have such great ideas that can change the world.

100 Days Before My Second Debut: Blessed Nysa

January 1

I’ve been very blessed because it is very rare that our family celebrates New Year with all the members present.

I am fortunate that I have a good job that gives me a good pay to provide blessings for our New Year celebration.

I am happy I have friends who don’t forget me and join me on my trying times. They see me on my wildest. They understand when I’m afraid.

These are my strengths.

countdown to my second debut

I just realized that the start of this year is 100 days before my 25th birthday. So I thought of writing some things that will make my days from January 1 to April 10 invaluable and laudable.

As what I’ve said, the start of 2009 wasn’t good for me. I encountered heart-breaking problems that made me weak. But I will try to figure out the good side of my story (right ate daye?!).

I hope, you will all be part of the brighter side of my life. And don’t leave on my darker days.

Thanks!

My Christmas Wishlist

1. Gadgets:
a.) Personal Computer or Laptop
b.) Cellphone - Sony Ericsson K850i or Samsung D880 or N82

2. Something to Wear:
a.) Dress – Bayo or Kamiseta, any color except pink, no spaghetti strap or low neckline.
b.) Blouse – any color except pink, formal or casual, no spaghetti strap or low neckline.
c.) Pants – jeans (maong or khaki), black, grey, brown or white, no skinny please
d.) Footwear – sandals, rubber shoes, flats or stilettos, any color except pink and neon colors, size 8

3. Accessories:
a.) Earrings – any color except pink, better if chandelier type
b.) Bracelets – any color except pink
c.) No ring or necklace please

4. Personal things:
a.) Bags – traveler’s bag, any color except neon colors and pink
b.) Pony bag – black, white, grey, or green
c.) Perfume or cologne – raspberry scent
d.) Book – Bob Ong’s or Marie Antoinette: The Journey by Antonia Fraser or Ambeth Ocampo’s History Book
e.) Photo Album – big

5. For my family:
a.) Nanay – Gas range with oven; Wrist watch; DVD Component or Magic Sing; Blouse, pants, slippers; Kitchen wares
b.) Kuya – medicine for his never ending cough and flu, shoes for his never ending travel, and extra time for his never ending busy schedule
c.) A – clear eyesight to look for his mr. right (haha!); traveler’s bag, violet sandals
d.) Angel – clothes; shoes, undies, barney CD, money for his christening

6. Miscellaneous – belt, bed sheet (single), bean pillow, bean bag, malong (double), planner, shoe rack, folding bed, bigger cabinet

Have a Merry Christmas and a Prosperous New Year!
Thank you in advance..

Proud Sis

I always remember my elementary and high schools days especially when we have to write something about a certain person. They call it “theme paper”. In this activity, they test the ability of the students in writing, how they arrange their words and stories.

But during those activities, when my teachers wanted us to write about our idol(s), my classmates always chose their favorite artist, politician, rocker, band, etc. But in my case, it is always about my “kuya” that I write.

My Kuya is my idol, because he is smart, bright, achiever and successful. During his high schools days, he always get the medal during competitions especially in history. He has numerous awards recognizing his brilliance in different fields. He graduated No.2 of over 1000 graduates.

When he went to Manila to take his bachelors' degree, I remember him going to school with no baon, with his clothes unironed, with no new shoes and clothes during enrolment. Yet he still managed to graduate with awards. He was a working student, a political leader, a student activist, an organization head all wrapped into one.

He was also elected SK Chairman of Catmon in 1996 beating his opponent who is the Barangay Captain’s grandson. A student party founder and leader. Because of his active participation in many organizations, he has gone to many places not only in the Philippines but also to other parts of the world. Yesterday, he's back from his meeting with colleagues in IFLRY where he is the Vice President. He attended their meeting for 10 days in Kiev, Ukraine.

What made me write this blog about my brother? It is because last November 2, he was elected by his colleagues in Young Liberals and Democrats in Asia to lead the organization. And now, he's the third President of YLDA after serving as Secretary General for two terms.

I am not proud..
because i'm already a fan..

you can't push it..

It's a great feeling when you're in love.
Just a glimpse of him, your day is complete..
Just a thought of him, life is not dim..
With just a smile, and you’re ready to die..

But you can’t really push someone to feel the same..
You can change his mind, maybe, but not his heart..

This is my realization after I had a chat with my friend, James. He thought I called him because I wanted him to come with me to watch Jonas. He said, he saw Jonas and told him to forget being gay and be a real man, for me… But Jonas said, “Ayoko nga!” He doesn’t want to be a real man… or what strike me is that he doesn’t want to be a man for me..

You know, I can make him change, make him a real man, make him forget his past. But after that, if ever I will be successful making him a true man, will he love me the way I do, or even a quarter of what I feel for him. Maybe he doesn’t like me.. Maybe he will never like me..

So might as well stop this foolishness (like what other people say..), and find a real man who will love me the way I love him or even more.

Haohao--ouch!

Last Saturday, I accompanied Ate Daye to KALIPI Headquarters to help her with her assignment—updating Justice Nachura’s book. So I was the one encoding the case digests. My sister, Aei came with her friend, Bandam, and Haohao, my Kuya Jan’s pet, a dog (chaochao, how do you spell this?). I got very excited to see Haohao so I played with her.

Haohao is also happy playing (I guess) with me so she keeps on barking and opening her mouth with those sharp teeth, when she bites me on my legs. I am not hurt thinking that her teeth didn’t reached my skin. So we still played. When I got tired, I looked at my pants and it’s butas (it has a hole). OMG! So I raised my pants and checked my legs, and I saw a 1-in. wound with blood slowly flowing out.

I wanted to cry because I thought I’m dying, in 10-15 days. I didn’t know what to do. I don’t have any knowledge about first aid for dog bites. I just washed it with water and put so much alcohol. I don’t know if that helped me lessen my worries, but I continued playing with Haohao. In fact, I bought her 2 cups of ice cream. I couldn’t be mad at her coz I simply love her. She’s so cute, jolly and sweet. And of course, I have to take care of her in case she has rabies. She has to live for 15 days and more. But my Kuya assured me that Haohao has completed his shots last Thursday so she is safe.

But I was still worried. I kept on talking on what I should do. I kept asking Ate Daye to ask her brother, who is a doctor, on what I am going to do. I told my close friends about what happened and that I’m going to die after 15 days. Some called me insane. Some told me to have it checked just to be sure. Some frightened me with stories of the victims of rabid animals.

Sunday, I am not worried anymore. But I still asked Doc Extee, Ate Daye’s brother, about my dog bite. As doctors usually do, he scared me about the possibilities of having rabies. He suggested having it checked immediately and that I should get shots of anti rabies.

After lunch, I went home and told my mother about my dog bite. She got nervous and almost teary-eyed telling me to go to the hospital and get anti rabies. To calm her and to prevent incurring more expenses (because her blood pressure might rise), I went to the doctor and had my first ever injection ever since I knew that it hurts.

tour guide

Last weekend, I was tasked by my very generous Kuya Eric to assist his friends from US in going to a comedy bar and to a spa.

So I prepared the itinerary, Saturday night for the comedy bar and Sunday afternoon for the Spa. I get the numbers of all the comedy bars i know, and 3 spas recommended by friends. In the end, they chose Punchline Comedy Bar and Blue Water Day Spa.

Saturday night, Punchline. They arrived ahead of time. I was with Juley. The performers are best of the bests in the comedy industry, led by Vice Ganda and Anton Diva. There are new jokes that really made us laugh out loud. Even our visitors, Kuya Ely, Kuya Mike and Ate Van enjoyed the show. (Don’t deny..) Before we parted ways, Kuya Eric called and talked to each one of us with so many habilin. It was past 2 in the morning when we left the place.

I woke up at 8am, because I have to text my college friends about the updates of our reunion. While our visitors from the US were busy conquering SM Mall of Asia.

Sunday afternoon, Blue Water Day Spa. Ate Dulce (Kuya Eric’s sister) arrived first while lovers Ate Mileth and Kuya Joel get there 10minutes ahead of us (Juley and I). The visitors came 10 minutes before 4pm (late! Hehe! Ok lang.. We’re late last night}. So we got our massage. Juley had to go earlier because of his prior commitment with college friends. Ate Dulce had to go home before our visitors finished their treatment. So I was the one left waiting for them to finish their treatment.

After our massage, we had our dinner at Gerry’s Grill, Tomas Morato, QC. We had delicious Filipino food like sisig, bulalo, ampalaya con carne (sounds Spanish) and tinomok, one of my favorites. After dinner, they dropped me off at V. Mapa in Sta. Mesa. And I carried Kuya Eric’s pasalubong for his friends and siblings.

To sum it up, I had a very busy weekend, but I’m not so tired because I had my massage and of course, laughter is the best medicine, so Vice Ganda really helped a lot. So it’s a busy fun-filled weekend. Thanks Kuya Eric! Mission accomplished…?... (sana…)

just before i fall in love

I told my friends, officemates and my mom about my kagagahan over Jonas, the vocalist. Happy sila para sa'kin kasi alam nilang matagal na akong walang boyfriend, and I know some of them are praying for me, na magkaboyfriend na ako.. Pero nung malaman nila na Jonas is gay, negative vibration strikes..

They said, mahirap ang magkaroon ng relasyon na ang isa ay kalahi ang gusto. Ang defense ko naman, kapag nagmahal ang tao, hindi nya sasaktan ang taong mahal nya. kaya kung sakaling mahalin ako ni Jonas, alam ko na hindi na sya maghahanap pa ng adan.

But then, they all continued to give me negative hopes.. it is impossible to love someone like him.. it is impossible that someone like him could love someone like me..

bakit ganun? hindi pa man nagsisimula ang love story namin, e ayaw na nilang magkatotoo pa un.. hayy..

and i am hurt, just before I fall in love..